“I hurt so much. I can’t imagine ever waking up again without pain, but if it’s possible please tell me how.”
Pain is such a predator. Even when you feel somewhat protected and safe from it for a short while, you feel it stalking you. Waiting for you to drop your guard or move in the wrong direction. Waiting to strike. So much discomfort, fear, and anxiety crowds the mind in anticipation of the next attack. It’s physical. It’s psychological. Even if it’s psychosomatic…it’s real. It can paralyze you from doing anything other than simply taking another dose of whatever you have found to ease it. Regardless of how temporary or self-destructive this may be. The reward always seems greater than the risk.
Depending on the type of pain you are fighting against, determines the game plan. A pain more physical in nature requires a great deal of acceptance and change to your lifestyle. This will depend on how physical you have been in your work and play. The things you have done to ease the pain and continue with normal life may have been much more effective in the past. These things may not have interfered with your relationships and emotional health like it may be doing today. The obsession of doing these things again, and it not being enough has become more familiar and disturbing. How did this happen? How did this get the best of me? These type of questions begin to work against you. However, they can be used as fuel if you know that this will only get worse should you continue to do the same things. For many, this pain derived from an injury. It is very common for those involved in personal injury to be experiencing problems with the misuse of substances and sometimes even the use of illicit substances. You may experience higher levels of denial that these things have taken over, due to your history of overcoming obstacles and not coming into this problem thru traditional pathways. However, please do not underestimate the challenge. This new territory is real and will require you to fully understand your current situation. Professional help can assist with forming a game plan of action that can accurately assess your reality and formulate a plan of action with you. Exploring natural means, holistic approaches, and possibly a change of lifestyle will be recommended. Good thing that they are always researching new methods and alternatives. You will find one that works best for you.
A pain more psychological in nature, like memories and experiences from life events, may require specific professional help and support. Although all pain will eventually have a psychological clamp on your decision making, one that is rooted in this area seems to target your will to fight and live to fight again tomorrow. Emotional pain challenges your philosophies of life, family, future, and faith. It uses all of your hidden fears and insecurities against you to lessen your desire to fight. It makes it difficult to think of anything else but the internal struggle that may or may not be visible to everyone around you. You get sick of fighting. You get sick of being told to fight. I’ve been so sick of this fight before in my own life that I don’t even want use the word fight again in this article. I know that I needed hope. I needed to believe that I must explore all other options fully before going back to what I knew was killing me. That includes choosing to not numb the pain. To not hide from it. To acknowledge it completely and understand it rather than wishing it away. To break the blame and silence the shame through this exploration. You are familiar with the alternative, so this is the only possible way to really feel anything else other than pain. There are many non invasive or holistic approaches to depression, anxiety, sleep disturbances, and addiction. Search out new professionals, new organizations, new individuals, and those that can relate to who you are and what you are experiencing. They exist. They exist in the millions. They are all around you waiting for you to ask and want their help. It’s how they keep the growth and change that they have. Relating to you somehow makes their own struggles of the past and present worth it. You complete the cycle of recovery for them. In the years to come you will be them and pass it on again. That is how this healing works, and it really does work. If you….yup you guessed it…work it.
Whatever you do after this point moving forward, please know that there is always a solution. A solution that involves you still being present. Here in the Central Florida Area you can always call 211 24/7 and let them know what kind of help you are looking for, or contact me at 407-721-5402 and I will help you personally find the help you need. NOW.